Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Limitations


I (Rebecca) came across this quote the other day by A.W. Tozer. The ironic thing was that I had actually "pinned" this quote on pinterest a while back but this past week the truth of this quote struck me between the eyes and really spoke to my heart. 

I am not sure about y'all but there are so many times where I feel that the Chronic Illness and Pain journey is filled with limitations. Limitations that I long to "throw off" and live life without. Limitations that can bring me to tears. Limitations that halt me so fast in my tracks and cause me to feel like I have hit a brick wall without seeing it coming. Limitations that force me to acknowledge that life, not matter how much I imagine it or long for it to be different, is limited because of Chronic Illness and Pain. 

You might have seen that the many parts of the south, including where I live, came to a complete "stop" this past week. We were literally "trapped" in our neighborhood for over a week and couldn't get out because of the ice and snow on the hills on our roads. While many people were grateful for this "break" from work and school, I grew more and more frustrated as each day passed. Due to extreme pain and sickness I had spent the 8 days prior to this ice storm primarily in bed so I was looking forward to "getting out". I tried to have a good attitude. I tried to remain cheerful. But by day 7 of being trapped in the neighborhood (day 15 of me not leaving the house) I was anything but cheerful and was frustrated and literally broke down crying. I watched with incredible envy many of my neighbors easily walking the hills to get to where they had parked their cars. For them the mile walk was nothing. For me it would have landed me in the hospital. 

In the midst of this going on, I received a text message from my best friend asking if I would be hurt if she invited another one of our friends to come and visit her. OF COURSE I was excited for my two friends to have the opportunity to attend a christian conference and to have the chance to visit, but I was once again stopped short by the limitations that being sick has put on my life. I can't just jump on a plane to visit my friends when I want. I can't hold a job right now due to being sick so I wouldn't even have money to go visit. I broke down in tears and cried myself a good pity party. 

Limitations, whether we like to admit them or not, are an unfortunate and realistic part of Chronic Illness and Chronic Pain. Limitations stop us from doing what we would like to do and living the life that we envision for ourselves. Limitations can be a constant source of frustration and pain if we wallow there. 

On the other hand though our limitations have the opportunity to showcase the amazing NON limitations of the God we worship. I was blown away thinking about this as with the Lord there are NO limitations. He is not bound by these things that limit me. He is boundless. He is limitless. 

As AW Tozer says, "How satisfying to turn from our limitations to a God who has none." Hold fast to this truth today friends. No matter the limitations and the pain that comes from this that we experience, we worship and serve a God who has no limitations. What hope and joy there is to be found there!

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